hey, haven't been here in a while and thought i'd say hello.....hello what's up? just here in first hour with nothing to do whatsoever. really tired and can't wait till i get home and get to sleep in. got 2 e-mails from Konstantinos :). well ttyl bye
posted by Alyson at 7:53 ap.

posted by Alyson at 1:50 ip.

Hey know i haven't posted in a bit but check out the Leaving Song Part II now!
posted by Alyson at 7:37 ap.

Hey, it's me again. Just saw Freddy Vs. Jason twice and it was awesome. The second time i saw it with a great new friend. Just started school on the 20th and so far its been pretty ok...added one picture and i still have the offer of customized Blogs...just send me a picture Url and font specifics...thx. ttyl
posted by Alyson at 8:47 ip.

Hey, know i haven't posted in a while. Anyway, lately i've been having even stranger dreams than before and i know it means something, but what? Oh well, can't wait 'till school starts. I'll also try to post more poems as i come up with them and as i find the ones i wrote before this journal. Hey, if you haven't seen Pirates of the Carribbean....GO SEE IT! You also need to see The League of Extraordinary Gentlemen. Oh...and if you visit(ed) the Church-of-Havok link, HELLO!! it's just a joke! jeesh. don't take it seriously. Ok, now that i got that out. hope your summer wasn't as boring as mine. anyway, ttyl.
posted by Alyson at 8:14 ap.

Here's some lyrics from a new friend that is near and dear to me.

"Just like cellophane, you try to cling so tight to me, but your attempt's in vain. You've less sincerity than the plastic. Paper in rain. The print appears so bright to me. The words remain. I hold it to the light, I see right through. So eager to say, "hello", but you don't know me. You just know what you see. Pay the price to see the show but you don't own me. Before you knew would you have felt the same? Just when I'm inspired, you drain the drive right outta me, and even when I'm tired you push me to perform for your amusement. Just like raging fire, you burn what's left inside of me and to fulfill your desire, I'd give you light till I burned out. Just when you start to smile, I look into your eyes and see your veiled denial to express any real emotion. Just wait around a while, you'll lose what you once had for me. I'll be out of style, I'll be discarded with the warmth you once feigned."

and

so i was right, my blood is black indeed. it's been inside way too long, laying still beneath my skin, filling my veins, but neglecting my need for oxygen, &so on. goodbye left arm, so long


&maybe a sound formed itself into the shape of my name,
twisted itself and warped its voice
into a terrifying parody of my name and
of my ideas and of my plans and of my future.

today i was watching my cat, staring at it's blatant paws when suddenly they turned into roughenend hands, i barely
had a chance of escape before the zeal of the hands caught me and wrapped themselves around my so innocent neck, on the
verge of passing out into a very different world than this, one where there's no darkness only fucked up dreams, i remembered
that I was going to ask you your thoughts on suicide, how could something so painful make me smile and feel so wonderful
just thinking about it? Although I would never attempt it, i often day dream about how i would kill myself, and what song
i would put on 'repeat' on my stereo for whoever finds me. the way for this ever so lifeless body to go out by choice would
be cutting my wrists and gently writing in blood with shaking tingles "goodbye", the lovely tune that i would do this wonderful
deed to myself would have to be afi - god called in sick today, i can't explain at this moment in time the deep
raw emotion i have for that song, especially the lyrics "...and miles away my mother cries, i can't help my laughter as she cries..."
how is that not the most beautiful thing you have ever read? at all in your time, have you ever felt like that?
smiling with tears in your eyes as you think about how the people around you would be affected if you took your last
breath away. the friends i thought I once have, their real skin has been exposed, i found out the way their innner
machines churn and turn over, i no longer care if you want to enjoy time with me, it's quite obvious why you always
lied to me, the CD-R's I had in my desk drawer explained a lot about the way you think, i'm thru, my time has come I hope
you love my intentions, the meaning behind my nothingness...

-- Travis aka IntangibleInsight--
posted by Alyson at 5:39 ip.

Hey visit this site, why?, bc i told you 2!! >:0 Poor Charles
posted by Alyson at 9:10 ip.

See The Leaving Song Part II Video and the Girls Not Grey Video
posted by Alyson at 11:18 ip.

New Quiz i just took(may have to scroll over for things)

You've also been a king,
an amoeba, and a rock star in your previous incarnations...

Which Karma
Slave character are you most like? No doubt you cannot live
without the answer.
posted by Alyson at 7:41 ip.